Monthly Archives: October 2014

Hiding

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I admit it. I have been hiding.

Hiding myself from friends and anyone who will want to know how I am doing.

Or how my family is doing.

Why should I surface when every time I see the worry and concern in people’s faces, I want to burst out into tears and start crying?

I have cried. And cried. Till I stopped crying. And started smiling.

The scary smile that Mrs. Adrian gives when she is too scared to cry.

I admit it. I have been hiding.

From all those people who have been so kind to us.

I have never heard of people raising so much money in 3 days by way of a “word of mouth” fund raiser.

What have we done to deserve such favour and love from people?

How did we get to this point where your friends do the thinking for you?

And uphold you in prayer so that when all you can do is cry, you still feel God carrying you and His presence surrounding you?

I admit it! I have been hiding.

Having knots in my stomach and head. Intervals of constipation and diarrhea. And sweating and having a cold.

And wondering where God is in all this.

Then I have remembered how in the past 30 days, He has answered EVERY SINGLE PRAYER.

In real time, no less. For real, every prayer has been answered.

So even as I continue to hide. I know HE IS IN CONTROL.